I am GRATEFUL

For you, thank you for making me laugh, reading this blog, emailing me and your faith. Thank you and Happy New Year.

POST XMAS BLUES

Well everyone, its that time of the year again, the post Christmas/holidays blues.
Yes, they have hit me. I cant beleive that a couple days have past since xmas eve and day.

I am so thankful for my family and the time we have had together. I am so happy that my brother is here and we are together. I am focused on these last few days and simply enjoying them. I am trying not to think of all the hard times of the last couple years and or whats ahead, Im trying to just be happy for family.

Merry Christmas.

THE CRYING GAME

So, as I know guys arent supposed to cry. But here goes a dash of honesty.
Today, I was speaking to friend and I started to cry and I havent been able to stop.

I just feel so overwhelmed and emotional. Maybe its the holidays, maybe its other looming issues. But, I just started and now I can not stop. I got a letter from my Dad on Friday and since then I have been out of control.

Does anyone know how to stop? What am I greatful for? I am breathing, thank you God.

What are you greatful for?

Thank You To The Ladys Today!

Thank you for thinking of me.

I can not tell you enough how much it meant to me.
It was a random act of kindness and I can not repay you for your
thought. I am greatful.

Thanks to Yvette

A quick thank you to Yvette, we used to work together years ago.

A few days ago she invited me to come to her cycling class and today I went.
I havent been in class in over a year. I have to say that I felt like I was home again. I cant believe how much it meant to me. It truly is the little things.

It is the first time in a long time I felt normal. Thanks Yvette, I am greatful for you taking the time out for a random act of kindness. It gave me hope that maybe someday I will teach again and appreciate it more.
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What are you greatful for.

P.S. To all you professors out there, remember greaful is spelled that way because grateful was already a blog.

When You Have Nothing Left

You have hope.

When you have nothing left, you have hope. I am suprised that even with so many days where I feel hopeless, I still have hope. Trying to work all these part time jobs, trying to get business taken care of, lots of set backs everyday, I still have hope.

I dream of a day life is normal again, I wish someone could wave a wand and bring me back 2 years. I completely take the blame for how things have turned out, I could have made better decisions and now I have to live with the realities of what has happened.

What am I greatful for today, HOPE.
Thanks for reading.

The Loss Of Credibilty!

One of the greatest lessons of the last year has been that you can work for years and be respected and it can all be gone in one instant.

Anyone can say anything they want about you and most people love to believe the worst. So many love the sensational. I am still waiting on the person who hears the sensational and says, "hey maybe this person needs some help". I am amazed at that we dont do that enough.

I am so greatful for a girlfriend of mine who has been such a support for me. I know that I am a burden right now so I am thankful that in her busy life she takes the time out to see if I am ok, alive, breathing. She is amazing. I am greatful to CAT DAT, THANK YOU. There are days when I couldnt make it and she answered the phone.
Thank you.

Who are you greatful for????